4-22-08

I was contacted today by a previous client who happened to check in with my site and was concerned because I hadn’t updated my blog in so long, and the last one was so depressing.

What a difference 7 months can make!

I had a little bit of a “rest” for a week at the end of Sept. A forced vacation. I had just mentally broken! What was interesting was while I was in the hospital a chaplain came to talk to me (I’m not particularly religeous, but I figured I would talk to anyone I could) and she hit on a key point in my life.

I was grieving. I had lost my old self, my relationship with one of my daughters, my marriage was changing, my home was in peril… It was just too much to take.The grief was a running theme through all of them.

I came home and took charge of my life in some fashion; I still have many health issues so it’s a challenge, but I did one thing at a time and was able to get stronger and stronger.

Just before Thanksgiving my daughter suddenly contacted me and rekindled our relationship, and that was one of the most healing things ever.

The friday before Christmas my husband got laid off, and that was a huge blow. The bigger blow was that he was actually okay with it, and very happy doing nothing. For good. He decided he just didn’t require that much out of life, and didn’t see the need… hm…


I give a lot of leeway in a relationship, but that is an area that I have an issue with, you have to have a goal in life! Or something… I asked him to move out and advertised for a roommate. He was confused, he said he was content. Of course he was! I was bringing in most of the money and worrying about the bills! Sheesh…. So, I ended up getting a roommate. Oh, if only my psychic ability worked for me….


March was the month from hell. This woman was psychotic! She stank, refused to bathe, constantly was interrupting me, asking me to do things and then changing her mind…. I was like a puppet and felt like I was back living with my crazy alcoholic mother. Halfway through the month I was guided to an amazing video through Netflix online on Boundaries; it changed my life. It taught me how to stand up for myself and protect myself. It was amazing.

She had not paid the second half of the rent, and then at the end of the month informed me that she wouldn’t be paying it, she just couldn’t. I had visions of the movie Pacific Heights with Michael Keaton. I did everything legal and went toe to toe with her, and had her out in 5 days!

I still am out the money, I have three checks from her that she says will be good next month, but we will see. I have wanted to move back into my room (she had the larger room for more rent). It has taken all this time to get the stench out, my cleaning lady has tried everything… and she is a miracle worker. We have tried enzymes on the carpet in the room that is carpeted (there are two rooms) and I cannot get the stench of cat out. It’s not heavy, it’s just on and off after we have done carpet cleaning, enzyme treatments, washing the walls, incense…. I don’t know what else to try!!! Email me if you have suggestions.

So, things are going better. Glitter is moving, I’m advertising at the beginning of the month to do readings, and my husband and I are working on things slowly. He is finally getting it….

Now I just need a way for some good income so I don’t have to go through the crazy house thing again!