I tricked myself into trying on pants I was afraid to try on…lol

This morning I was in a hurry to get dressed, and my house keeper has been putting my clothes away since I moved back into my own room (long story).  I reached into my armoire and grabbed my white pants and blue shirt that are one of the outfits that I generally wear, and after I put the pants on they felt weird and there was a tag on them.  They were the pants I bought on Ebay!!  The xl’s I have been putting off trying on since they are technically a 16 and I have anxiety about even trying them on.

They are roomy!  I’m stunned…  I still see the old me, and even after losing 175 lbs I am trying hard to see what other people see.

I got my hair cut really short to highlight my new face, and now people say I look like my sister (size 6) who I haven’t talked to in almost a year, another long story. 

The talk of plastic surgery comes up periodically, but I really don’t have that much extra floating round.  I have about 45 pounds to go to my goal, and I just don’t know if it would be worth the additional pain I already have.  It’s just become nice enough to get out and walk so I think I will try the exercise route for a while.

A friend of mine’s mother gave me about 4 bags of clothes, and I expected a few things to be items I would want, but it was all amazing things~!  About a dozen pairs of different color jeans, shirts and sweaters, all really nice and 16s.  Now I’m excited to try them on!