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Letting go.

I thought it was just me, but after talking to so many people lately letting go seems to be the theme since the recent ‘step up’ in December.

Admittedly being a hoarder of art and craft supplies (and two storage sheds) being an artist I always justified everything I hung on to.  Sure, paint, brushes, papers, adhesives, my hundreds of glitter and beads, even my life size flat mannequin rescued from the alley.  Then 4 years ago I had to downsize my 4 story victorian house to a 1 bedroom apartment and realized I had a problem.

I couldn’t part with the blank newspaper.  Or the old dishes. The plastic flowers; 4 black trash bags full… you’ve seen the hoarder shows where they have to dig through every bit of a trash bag??  That was me, head first in the plastic bag til I was lightheaded.  And I hate plastic flowers!!!

So these things went into storage.  Lots went to other people, but lots went to storage since I had no time to deal with it.  Then this past October things started to lighten up for me.  All of a sudden the give-away-fairy lived in my home.  Parting with items felt… nothing.  Felt nothing.  How could I part with these amazing items and feel nothing???

Tubs and tubs of papers and cutters, craft supplies went to the local High School Art Class; yes I faltered and did keep one tub that had Emu eggs and Mardi Gras items I needed to go through.  Scrapbooking items, punches, so many things…  Two SUV’s the teachers filled and I felt nothing.

Down to one storage shed.  I even found items unrecognizable to me, had no idea ever receiving.  A great jewelry display box.  (I did keep that).

The point is, sending boxes and boxes of jewelry items and sewing items to my kids and friends has been happening more since this December shift.  Things don’t seem to matter for the first time in 52 years.  The Universe has made some kind of amazing move lately that I am unfamiliar with.  Letting Go.

The flip side of this has been meeting new people.  Being a hermit the people around me are very few.  New people are rare.  The information I get is overwhelming and since December getting stronger imagery and smells has been something to work with; but I decided that with the letting go of THINGS alternatively letting people IN was a meaningful thing for the first time in my life that I have never done before.

So amny amazing things have happened in the past month after opening up to people.  They aren’t as afraid of me as they used to be; that was always hard to take.  Words come easier as I can separate the images from the words.

Having a sarcastic sense of humor I like to have fun with people and can go too far, but find that people on my wavelength click with me in that way.  The recent show I did introduced me to so many great people and the feeling was overwhelming… And then I had to wonder why this happened as I am getting ready to move across the state 🙂

Letting Go.  So hard.  Now so easy; the Universe has brought a new chapter into my life and so many others are feeling it too in their lives.  Letting go.  Meeting people and connecting.  The change is great, and the change is amazing for other people as well.

And, if anyone needs craft items let me know.

 

Worked a show in Winona this weekend, and it was amazing.  So many wonderful people.  So many readings!  Saturday was exhausting, and I slept better that night than I have in a long time…  Sunday was tough.

Sunday a woman came into my booth and I knew her, and asked where I had met her before.  She said no, we hadn’t met.  I said I was sure we had met before somewhere, don’t you hate that feeling that you can’t place where you know where you saw them?

She asked about the mini readings I do, so we went to sit down, and then she said that her friend had been in on Saturday and asked a question regarding her; I said ‘That’s where I know you from!”  I recognized her energy signature from the connection the day before.

It was so great to make the connection but also weird; to recognize a person by their energy signarure was so strange.

That’s a good explanation of the times in your life where you meed someone and automatically feel like you like them or dislike them.  The energy signature is just at some familiar level to you.

It also is a good explanation of how that phenomenon works when you can feel someone ‘watching’ you.  The energy is in the room and you can feel it,

This doesn’t just happen in proximity yo you.

After the show was over and I came back home I was exhausted and having a hard time getting back into the swing of thngs in my home.  Having visited with so many people and done so much it took more out of me than ever before.

I asked my sister to help if she knew a way to overcome it since she is a performer and she had wonderful ideas.

That helped somewhat… and gelt better.

Then I kept getting texts from people who needed things, and I just was surprised at the volumn of requests I was getting.  So unusual.

Out of the amazing blue my mentor from AZ texted me asking what was up…  Apparently feeling my discomfort.  Surprised the heck out of me!

She had wonderful advice for me to get back on track with things.

Crazy stuff, eh?

Yes, again this year I will be a guest at the WInona Home Show doing mini readings for people at the show.  Quick little sample readings so you can see what it’s like.

I will also be carrying a selection of stones and jewelry at my booth, located right next to the Winona Radio Group booth in the back where all the announcements are going on.

Sat 10-5, Sunday 11-4.

Last year was lots more that just home builder stuff, including some food booths that were tortuing us all day!

Lots of free goodies too.

 

RELAX!

I absolutely believe that if you are either not ready or comfortable to get a reading after scheduling one, then we just don’t.  Also it’s understood that just because I know me, you have no idea who I am.  Do it my self on occassion when I have anxiety.   Used to do it lots more.  Sometimes it’s just the way you have to do it.

Getting a reading is something you do when you are having stress in your life, so worrying about the reading shouldn’t be adding to the stress!!  I’m sending you good thoughts, love, light, and random acts of chocolate into your life no matter what.

Even if we have a reading scheduled I’m working on other things with my business that need to be done, or crocheting, reading, etc…  That’s one reason I leave it up to you to call.  It gives you the decision.  I have plenty to do if you don’t call, and just keep on going hoping you are ok, but I would never call and invade your life.  If you don’t reach out to me and still are having stress and issues I hope you reach out to someone and if we meet again it’s in better times.

SO; please never feel like I would be feeling any ill will if you cancel or don’t call after making an appointment.  This part of me that works with other people is very unique in my life and I get much more out of it when I do talk to you, but it’s just not in my nature to harbor anything but good will and best wishes to anyone for anything, just ask my ex(es), lol.

If you hurt one of my kids we will have a different talk I guarantee it, other than that we are good.

V.

Had lots of time to think lately.  Usually not a good thing for me, I like to be busy at least mentally.   But with the cold and the weather it’s just a blah kind of month.

I realized today how off it’s been really.  Having the flu is bad enough, but the before and after parts are all bad too; the prelude when you don’t know it’s coming on, you just feel funny; days like today where you think it’s good but it hits again.  These are my ‘blind’ days.  Seems all of January has been mostly blind.

I don’t talk much usually.  People have commented about my being quiet, stuck-up or even ‘intimidating’, lol.  It’s just that I don’t have to talk.  Like the 5 year old kid who never spoke a word until one day he said ‘my oatmeal is cold’; his parents were amazed; he said ‘well, everything has been fine up until now’.

Things just come to me when talking to people, so there is less to say.  Until weeks like this.

Then the babbling starts.  Cause I have no idea what people are thinking or feeling, and I’m shooting in the dark; and I sound like a freaking idiot.

Talking to everyone that normally would be a short conversation ends up with me stepping out of my body yelling at myself to SHUT UP!!! but I can’t!  Every emotion is asking what, when, how, why…. all at the same time.

Maybe I do sound like someone that has suddenly just lost a sense.  Glad to know it’s short term though, for now anyway.

Scam artists are making my blood boil.  How can I get the word out there louder?  Stronger? Anyone reading this blog that has a way to spread the word wider please let me know.

Scam artists may or may not have some degree of abilities to suck you in, but once any dollar amount over $100 is mentioned, second readings, or any of the following: candles, objects, crystals, affecting other people, calling you, seeing black clouds, black auras, asking for gifts, gift cards, money orders, talking about anything scary or negative to scare you, predicting specific events or dates for people to call (and telling you not to answer), asking for photos or treasured mementos….

RUN.  RUN FAST.  DON’T ANSWER WHEN THEY CALL, and they will, I guarantee it.

Real psychics dislike the term psychic since it infers expectations like this now.  We are preferring Intuitive or something like that; no one thinks about why it’s so hard to find a real and ethical Intuitive Reader.  Let me tell you.

REAL Readers have had a very hard life.  Imagine having things in your head about everyone around you and most people you meet, and learning it’s a bad thing to tell people it’s a bad thing since no one understands what you have.  Imagine having no one to ask any questions about what you are experiencing once you understand what it is you are feeling and seeing.

Imagine getting the life nearly beat out of you most of your life because your mother insists you are the devil and she is a raging evil alcholic who is really afraid of you but doesn’t want you to know what she is really thinking.

Imagine divorcing every husband you have had since they just couldn’t stand you knowing things about them all the time, or because you got so much attention.

Or best of all, the physical toll it takes on your body.  True sensitives and intuitives have horrible physical problems and migraines because of the energy drain it takes on their bodies that the doctors just can’t fix or even understand; leaving you fighting for disability and ending up with no life to live but fighting for survival because you slip through the cracks of the government system after working hard all your life and making too much money to get any help even though you now live far below poverty.

Now go back to the phone call you make to the ‘psychic’; are they thinking of you, or of their own needs?

I have rarely shared aspects of my life with anyone, but it sickens me to see people who are in dire straights even worse than I am losing money paying these people stealing food from their mouths.  I talk to people in distress all the time who are in distress after being told they are cursed now unless they come up with a thousand dollars.

I’m pissed off.

And hungry.  And still just worried about the person on the other end of the phone, not my own pain.  Because that’s what my path is.

Time to see if someone put something new in my fridge again.

New Year, New Thoughts.

Happy New Year!

Best wishes to everyone on a year full of hopes and dreams filled to the brim; since that is what life is, choices made, wishes cast to the universe to bring back to you 3 fold.

It’s also a time to look back and see what you make of the past year.  Time passed so you have time to remove the emotion of events and see them for what they really are.  Were those bad times really bad, or blessings in disguise?  Were those good times treasured enough to have for ages?  Everything is all in the way you take it.  Just like the Twilight Show that is so memorable of the people in heaven and hell; they are actually in the same room.  An old couple watching endless movies of their past, in heaven; the rowdy biker stuck in the same room trapped in his version of hell.

New Year’s Resolutions? No, hate them.  I tend to have random resolutions.  If you force yourself or someone else to do something it won’t happen just since you will resent it eventually.  Also if you have a resolution and want to make a change you can do it over and over until you make that change, while I do like the little green Jedi, the sentiment of “Do or not do, there is no try” doesn’t work for me.

Procrastination is my weakness.  Worst thing in my life for a long time.  So hard to just relax and take time without thinking of all the things that need to be done, then too tired of thinking to do them.  If there could just be some synchronization of the energy of thinking and the movement of doing…  Sounds so silly, and yet in the whole existence of the massive changes in life it’s the one constant.

Now other people look at my life and marvel at all the things that have been done, and are done, even with the limitations I have.  While still feeling it’s never enough.  I scoff at the people who say I should write a book since I think my life is boring; maybe it’s just life lived at a different speed.

Looking back at this year and the past 4 years it’s been one long blur; getting used to being in a new phase of my life, moving toward a new spiritual awakening that is happening and affecting so many people.  Moving from the material to the spiritual.  Once my piles of stuff made me feel safe, now they just make me feel choking.